Audio: You'll Miss Me when I 'm Gone - Rachel Lynn Salomon

Eighteen-year-old twins Adina and Tovah have little in common besides their ambitious nature. Viola prodigy Adina yearns to become a soloist—and to convince her music teacher he wants her the way she wants him. Overachiever Tovah awaits her acceptance to Johns Hopkins, the first step on her path toward med school and a career as a surgeon. 

But one thing could wreck their carefully planned futures: a genetic test for Huntington’s, a rare degenerative disease that slowly steals control of the body and mind. It’s turned their Israeli mother into a near stranger and fractured the sisters’ own bond in ways they’ll never admit. While Tovah finds comfort in their Jewish religion, Adina rebels against its rules.

When the results come in, one twin tests negative for Huntington’s. The other tests positive.

These opposite outcomes push them farther apart as they wrestle with guilt, betrayal, and the unexpected thrill of first love. How can they repair their relationship, and is it even worth saving?

Audio CD, 10 pages
Published May 29th 2018 by Tantor Audio (first published January 2nd 2018)
YA, Fiction
for review

My thoughts:

This was a tough and emotional one. I have no idea what I would have done in this situation.

It is the story of two sisters. Adina, the viola prodigy. She has no friends cos all she does is play her viola. She is happy, until...

Tovah, who studies hard to get into Johns Hopkins. Who is in clubs and more, who still has time for friends and to study the Torah.

Their mother has Huntingdon's and one twin wants to take the test, one does not. They do and everything falls apart. How can you live on when you know you will die? Maybe not tomorrow, maybe you will live a long time, or maybe you will get unlucky and get it early. And it is not fair.

How can you live with the guilt knowing that your twin will suffer and die and you will live on? That you first will see your mother die and then your twin?

Then there is the thing that they have not really been friendly for years after an event. They might be twins, but they are not friends.

Guilt, depression, sadness and rage. This one tears at you and I want them all to be ok, but, it will not be ok! 

Oh, and they are still in HS, and I'd say it really is upper YA since there is smex and more.

Conclusion:

It was a really good book, that stays with you. Because ultimately it will make you think

Narrated by Laurel Schroeder, Emily Lawrence

They did the sisters. I have heard Emily before and like her voice. She really put emotion into it.

I was not sure about Laurel, it took me a while to warm up to her, but then it did fit the sister she had.

A really good performance by both