Audio: You'll Miss Me when I 'm Gone - Rachel Lynn Salomon

Eighteen-year-old twins Adina and Tovah have little in common besides their ambitious nature. Viola prodigy Adina yearns to become a soloist—and to convince her music teacher he wants her the way she wants him. Overachiever Tovah awaits her acceptance to Johns Hopkins, the first step on her path toward med school and a career as a surgeon. 

But one thing could wreck their carefully planned futures: a genetic test for Huntington’s, a rare degenerative disease that slowly steals control of the body and mind. It’s turned their Israeli mother into a near stranger and fractured the sisters’ own bond in ways they’ll never admit. While Tovah finds comfort in their Jewish religion, Adina rebels against its rules.

When the results come in, one twin tests negative for Huntington’s. The other tests positive.

These opposite outcomes push them farther apart as they wrestle with guilt, betrayal, and the unexpected thrill of first love. How can they repair their relationship, and is it even worth saving?

Audio CD, 10 pages
Published May 29th 2018 by Tantor Audio (first published January 2nd 2018)
YA, Fiction
for review

My thoughts:

This was a tough and emotional one. I have no idea what I would have done in this situation.

It is the story of two sisters. Adina, the viola prodigy. She has no friends cos all she does is play her viola. She is happy, until...

Tovah, who studies hard to get into Johns Hopkins. Who is in clubs and more, who still has time for friends and to study the Torah.

Their mother has Huntingdon's and one twin wants to take the test, one does not. They do and everything falls apart. How can you live on when you know you will die? Maybe not tomorrow, maybe you will live a long time, or maybe you will get unlucky and get it early. And it is not fair.

How can you live with the guilt knowing that your twin will suffer and die and you will live on? That you first will see your mother die and then your twin?

Then there is the thing that they have not really been friendly for years after an event. They might be twins, but they are not friends.

Guilt, depression, sadness and rage. This one tears at you and I want them all to be ok, but, it will not be ok! 

Oh, and they are still in HS, and I'd say it really is upper YA since there is smex and more.

Conclusion:

It was a really good book, that stays with you. Because ultimately it will make you think

Narrated by Laurel Schroeder, Emily Lawrence

They did the sisters. I have heard Emily before and like her voice. She really put emotion into it.

I was not sure about Laurel, it took me a while to warm up to her, but then it did fit the sister she had.

A really good performance by both

Audio: August and everything after - Jennifer Savato Doktorski

Graduation was supposed to be a relief. Except Quinn can't avoid the rumors that plagued her throughout high school or the barrage of well-intentioned questions about her college plans. How is she supposed to know what she wants to do for the next four years, let alone the rest of her life? And why does no one understand that it's hard for her to think about the future-or feel as if she even deserves one-when her best friend is dead? Spending the summer with her aunt on the Jersey shore may just be the fresh start Quinn so desperately needs. And when she meets Malcolm, a musician with his own haunted past, she starts to believe in second chances. Can Quinn find love while finding herself? 

Audio CD, 7 h
Published May 1st 2018 by Tantor Audio
YA fiction
For review

My thoughts:

This one felt like more than YA, maybe it is NA then.

Quinn is done with HS and is drifting. She has a summer to decide whether do go to College or something else. And her mum wants answers like yesterday. She is staying with her aunt (who was super cool and loves music), and working in a bar.

She has a past, wrong guys and the loss of her bestie. Poor Quinn still blames herself. And this was my second book about losing a best friend in a short while. This one dealt with it differently. 

Then in comes a hot singer and maybe he can be the right one for once.

Oh girl, maybe not. Malcolm is a drug user, sure he is recovering, but he is messed up from losing his bandmates.  Sure they both share that loss and because of that they find each other.

Also, it is a romance and at the same time not. All I can say is that I am glad she does find herself in the end. And sure, gets a bit of romance too.

Plus lots of music!

Narrator Emily Lawrence

All good things here, I liked her voices and yeah, she did not make it YA. That might sound weird, but some make it YA which is perfect. But since this one does feel more NA with drugs, alcohol and smex then her voice fitted it so well.